Conflict

Last night Teacher and I came across our first major misunderstanding/issue in the relationship between the two of us. He misunderstood the way that I was feeling and I misunderstood the meaning of his words this caused an issue where both of us felt hurt, confussed, angry and for me I was terrified that he wouldn't want me now, that he would leave me. Rather then sweeping the issues under the carpet and ignoring them however he made me talk about them, he dug deep to the bottom of what had happened to find the cause of my reaction and we talked for a long time about it. Right at that moment I didn't want to talk I wanted to make myself as small as I could, to kneel with my head on the ground of throw my self at his feet and beg him to forgive me but he wouldn't let me and made me kneel on all fours and discuss it with him and today in the daylight I am glad that he did make me talk, glad that he cares enough to have dug deep for the root of an issue rather then just punish me and forget about it.

His reaction makes me feel cared about and safe with him. He also admited to me that he loves me in a non romantic way at the moment but that he could see that changing as he sees me getting over and moving on from my ex. His 'confession' made me open up too and tell him that I loved him and am doing everything I can to stop myself 'falling' in love with him as it wouldn't be fair to him while I still have feelings for my ex.