Master and I had to perform the discipline/punishment ritual this afternoon as a result of me being disrespectful and disobediant over the last 24 hours. I have to say that while it is not plesant to have to do that ritual the ritual really did help me focus on what it was I had done wrong (not that I hadn't spent half the day thinking about it) and atoning for my transgressions which I guess is the point of the ritual.
Master chose to cane me for my actions as well as having me write the essay is my previous post. The cane is something I hate and don't think I will ever grow to like and usualy by the time he has finished disciplining me with it I am in tears not just from the pain but from the release of guilt that I carry from dissapointing Master so much. Today was no exception by the time he finished caning me the tears were flowing and then I was shocked and a little confussed when he didn't just stop and hold me like he has in the past. No rather then stop he decided to choose that time to use me as a Master should use his slave, he had me suck his cock before he turned me around and plunged it into me and used me hard. It was in that moment that I had a moment of crystal clear clairity unlike anything I have had recently because in that moment it hit me that I am a slave, that I am there for Master's use regardless of how I am feeling or what I want and with that realization my tears kept flowing. When Master finished and asked me what was wrong I could not put that into words as my mind was such a whirlpool of confussion and shock so here I am now putting it into words for him here. Using me straight after he had punished me really did ram home the fact that I am nothing but his slave to use as he wishes and with that thought there is a little bit of comfort as well. I can't say that I enjoyed him using me like that but I will say that I am glad he did and that I hope he does in the future. I was lucky enough that when he had finished using me he allowd me to cum and then held me close to him afterward as we dozed together.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Essay - Roles, responsabilitys and rights of a slave. M/s
A slave's role, rights and responsibilities can be stated very simply, the slave is her Master's property and plays what ever role her Master wishes and has what ever responsibility and rights that her Master may grant her.
It is the role of a slave to be whatever it is that her Master wishes her to be and to perform her role to the best of her ability. Within the realms of the bdsm world there are many different roles a slave may be given. She may be a sex or bedroom slave and fulfill all her master's fantasies in the bedroom. She may be a house slave and see to the easy running of her Master's household, she may be a companion slave there for conversation and companionship of her Master or she may be nothing more then an object, a position that her Master may or may not play with or put on display as he so wishes. Many slave's perform all of these roles and more to this type of slave her role is to be what ever her Master wishes to be when he wishes her to be it. This means that regardless of what a slave may be occupied with at any given time if she receives a command from her Master she will follow it to the best of her ability without argument or delay.
So what responsibilities does a slave have? It is a slave's responsibility to exhibit an appropriate attitude and display humility and deference towards her Master. It is a slave's responsibility to treat her Master with respect without expecting the same respect in return. It is the slave's responsibility to be ready to fulfill her Master's orders and to make sure that any prior orders have been acted upon. A slave's responsibility is to serve her Master in anyway he wishes in any place and at any time that he see's fit.
When discussing the roles and responsibilities that a slave may take in a household we must also turn out attention to the discussion of a slaves rights. It is too easy to make a blanket statement an say that the only rights and responsibilities that a slave has is those that her Master may grant her. While this statement may be correct it ignores the simple fact that in the western world we live in no person can legally give herself to another person and that in the western world slavery as we know it is illegal. As a result of this it is a slaves right to terminate a relationship and ask for release at any time in the relationship to this humble slave's way of thinking that right is the only right beyond breathing (though if he really wishes a Master can even control how a slave breaths) that a slave retains once she has surrendered herself to a Master. A slave may never say no to her Master or disobey a direct (or indirect) order without expecting drastic consequences that may range from a simple punishment to being released and sent away from her owner.
(520 words)
It is the role of a slave to be whatever it is that her Master wishes her to be and to perform her role to the best of her ability. Within the realms of the bdsm world there are many different roles a slave may be given. She may be a sex or bedroom slave and fulfill all her master's fantasies in the bedroom. She may be a house slave and see to the easy running of her Master's household, she may be a companion slave there for conversation and companionship of her Master or she may be nothing more then an object, a position that her Master may or may not play with or put on display as he so wishes. Many slave's perform all of these roles and more to this type of slave her role is to be what ever her Master wishes to be when he wishes her to be it. This means that regardless of what a slave may be occupied with at any given time if she receives a command from her Master she will follow it to the best of her ability without argument or delay.
So what responsibilities does a slave have? It is a slave's responsibility to exhibit an appropriate attitude and display humility and deference towards her Master. It is a slave's responsibility to treat her Master with respect without expecting the same respect in return. It is the slave's responsibility to be ready to fulfill her Master's orders and to make sure that any prior orders have been acted upon. A slave's responsibility is to serve her Master in anyway he wishes in any place and at any time that he see's fit.
When discussing the roles and responsibilities that a slave may take in a household we must also turn out attention to the discussion of a slaves rights. It is too easy to make a blanket statement an say that the only rights and responsibilities that a slave has is those that her Master may grant her. While this statement may be correct it ignores the simple fact that in the western world we live in no person can legally give herself to another person and that in the western world slavery as we know it is illegal. As a result of this it is a slaves right to terminate a relationship and ask for release at any time in the relationship to this humble slave's way of thinking that right is the only right beyond breathing (though if he really wishes a Master can even control how a slave breaths) that a slave retains once she has surrendered herself to a Master. A slave may never say no to her Master or disobey a direct (or indirect) order without expecting drastic consequences that may range from a simple punishment to being released and sent away from her owner.
(520 words)
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Book of Days - 28th July 2009
Outside my window- Again a blue sky with no signs of even a whispy white cloud. There is a bird sitting in the tree outside my window chirping happily to itself.
my thoughts - Its funny how things can change in a little over a week. From an almost vanilla exsitence back to more of a lifestyle focus then we have had in a long time. It has felt so easy to come back to place, so easy to let go of all the control and allow Master to pick it up again. In letting go, in surrending and giving up my freedom I feel more freedom then I have in a long long time.
Today's Quote- "There are thorns everywhere, but along the path of vice, roses bloom above them." -:Marquis DeSade:-
i am thankful for- The beautiful weather that Brisbane is currently experiencing. The warmth in the daytime, the blue sky and sunlight combined with Master's guidance leading me deeper and deeper in submission are bringing me to life once more.
From my service training - This week there is focus on maintaing our newly introduced rituals and adjusting to life as his slave under a higher protocol then that I am used too. It may not be very interesting but if those basic foundations of our relationship are not learnt and don't become habit then it is pointless to move on to any other sort of training.
From the kitchen- This week I WILL bake something nice for Master.
What I am wearing- A silk skirt that Master bought me early in our relationship with a pink happy bunny tshirt that says I've been naught so what?
i am creating- A cleaner home for us to live and relax in. This weeks big task is to spring clean the bedroom.
my adventures this week- After a busy weekend I am hoping that this week will be a quiet one. As things stand my only plans this week are going to the dentist tomorrow morning and being open to what ever Master desires of me.
Becoming well read- Reading vanity fair.
i manifest and co-create- the willingness to submit all that I am to my Master's keeping.
Todays Melody- song for those who know.
One of my favorite things- Strawberries. I am obsessed with strawberries at the moment and can not seem to get enough of them. I can happily consume a whole punnet for breakfast and then want more after dinner.
further plans for this week- Dentist.
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If you have enjoyed going through my day with me and would like to see what the Service Book of Days is all about, go to Service Savoire Faire by Master Obsidian's slave namaste.
my thoughts - Its funny how things can change in a little over a week. From an almost vanilla exsitence back to more of a lifestyle focus then we have had in a long time. It has felt so easy to come back to place, so easy to let go of all the control and allow Master to pick it up again. In letting go, in surrending and giving up my freedom I feel more freedom then I have in a long long time.
Today's Quote- "There are thorns everywhere, but along the path of vice, roses bloom above them." -:Marquis DeSade:-
i am thankful for- The beautiful weather that Brisbane is currently experiencing. The warmth in the daytime, the blue sky and sunlight combined with Master's guidance leading me deeper and deeper in submission are bringing me to life once more.
From my service training - This week there is focus on maintaing our newly introduced rituals and adjusting to life as his slave under a higher protocol then that I am used too. It may not be very interesting but if those basic foundations of our relationship are not learnt and don't become habit then it is pointless to move on to any other sort of training.
From the kitchen- This week I WILL bake something nice for Master.
What I am wearing- A silk skirt that Master bought me early in our relationship with a pink happy bunny tshirt that says I've been naught so what?
i am creating- A cleaner home for us to live and relax in. This weeks big task is to spring clean the bedroom.
my adventures this week- After a busy weekend I am hoping that this week will be a quiet one. As things stand my only plans this week are going to the dentist tomorrow morning and being open to what ever Master desires of me.
Becoming well read- Reading vanity fair.
i manifest and co-create- the willingness to submit all that I am to my Master's keeping.
Todays Melody- song for those who know.
One of my favorite things- Strawberries. I am obsessed with strawberries at the moment and can not seem to get enough of them. I can happily consume a whole punnet for breakfast and then want more after dinner.
further plans for this week- Dentist.
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If you have enjoyed going through my day with me and would like to see what the Service Book of Days is all about, go to Service Savoire Faire by Master Obsidian's slave namaste.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Introducing rituals to daily life D/s
You would think that after being his slave for almost two years that I would have learnt by now that when ever Master sets me to writing an assignment he almost always uses something out of what I have written. I blame pregnant brain if i had been more with it yesterday then I am sure I would have realized what he was up too. See it only occured to me after I wrote and posted those rituals yesterday that Master was getting me to write them because in writing them I was showing him the things that I thought I was capable of doing. Master happily read through the rituals I wrote and liked them so much that he has made them all part of our rules set begining today.
This morning in a freezing cold room I had to climb out of the nice warm bed and kneel on the slave mat to preform the morning ritual for the first time. Thankfully Master was merciful and shortened it greatly from what it usualy would be, he also decided that he didn't want breakfast or coffee and that i could go straight back to bed after he gave me my tasks for the day. This afternoon when Master arrived home from work I was waiting kneeling again on my mat to preform the afternoon ritual. Again we didn't do it completly but it will take time for both of us to learn the rituals.
Despite the cold of the morning and despite the fact that we did not preform the rituals in their entirity it somehow felt right, somehow felt as though this is how things should be and really helped put me more in touch with the slave side of me that I was so sure that I had lost and would never be able to find again. Perhaps in time I will find these rituals annoying or perhaps they will go the other way and prove a fantastic tool for keeping me on track and a comfort when i am finding it rough, only time will tell.
This morning in a freezing cold room I had to climb out of the nice warm bed and kneel on the slave mat to preform the morning ritual for the first time. Thankfully Master was merciful and shortened it greatly from what it usualy would be, he also decided that he didn't want breakfast or coffee and that i could go straight back to bed after he gave me my tasks for the day. This afternoon when Master arrived home from work I was waiting kneeling again on my mat to preform the afternoon ritual. Again we didn't do it completly but it will take time for both of us to learn the rituals.
Despite the cold of the morning and despite the fact that we did not preform the rituals in their entirity it somehow felt right, somehow felt as though this is how things should be and really helped put me more in touch with the slave side of me that I was so sure that I had lost and would never be able to find again. Perhaps in time I will find these rituals annoying or perhaps they will go the other way and prove a fantastic tool for keeping me on track and a comfort when i am finding it rough, only time will tell.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Assignment - Rituals
Rituals
Morning Ritual
To be preformed on waking each morning.
The ritual:
The slave will rise either slightly before or with The Master every morning and will kneel on her slave mat. Once the Master is awake and out of bed he stands before his slave and pulling her hair back ask's the slave who she belongs too and what this means. When the slave has given an acceptable answer (and acceptable may vary from day to day depending on Masters whims) Master orders her to prove that she is worthy of serving him this day and to beg him for this privledge. The slave may attempt to prove that she is worthy of serving her Master in any way that she sees fit. (Asking permission to pleasure him or kiss his feet for example) When Master is satisfied that his slave has earned the privledge of serving him this day he will grant her permission to rise and serve him and if she is lucky may also let her know how much her loves and values her.
Once permission has been granted for the slave to serve her Master that day she will either begin to prepare his breakfast while he showers or attend him in the bathroom as per Master's orders.
If she has been ordered to see to Breakfast by the time Master has finished his morning shower the slave will have his breakfast laid out on the table and a thermos of fresh coffee (to take to work with him) ready. She will be kneeling in her place awaiting him. With eyes cast down the slave will ask Master how she may serve him today it is at this point that Master will give the slave any orders that he may have for that day. If slave has please Master that morning he may invite her to join him at breakfast and give her orders while they share breakfast together if not then he will give his orders while she kneels beside the tables.
Before leaving for work for the day Master will grant his slave permission to go about her day and attend to her duties. If he is particularly pleased he may indulge his slave with a kiss or a hug before he leaves for work.
Rational:
Starting the day in this manner assists the slave to be in the right mindset from the very beginning of the day. Both Master and slave are well aware of where each stands by the reinforcing that the slave belongs to him and of what this means. Proving that she is worthy to serve the slave agains reinforces th correct mindset for her day. This ritual is about starting the day on the right foot so that the slave knows her places and knows what is expected of her that day without there being any questions about it. By attending Master in the shower or preparing his breakfast while he showers the slave experiences her first act of service for the day and feels pleasure that she has been able to serve and start her Master's day off in a positve manner.
Exceptions to preforming this ritual:
Master has granted a time out for the day as per the slave rules.
The slave has been granted permission to have a sleep in.
The slave has had to rise and leave the house to see to her work/study before Master has had to start his day.
If the child is awake then this ritual will be modified. The slave will still be required to kneel however this portion of the morning ritual will be kept brief with Master only asking her who she belongs too. She will still be required to serve breakfast and will still be given her orders for the day at that point in time.
Greeting Ritual:
This ritual is to be preformed when ever the Master or slave has been out of the house for work/study or on their own and will be preformed as soon as they are in private together.
If the Master has been out:
The slave will make sure that by the time Master is due home she is clean and tidy and pleasing to look at and that fresh coffee will only take a few moments to prepare once she is released to get Master his afternoon coffee. If Master is feeling kind that day he may send her a message as he leaves work so that she knows she has about an hour to prepare, if he is feeling mean that day or really wanting to push the slave he may not let her know at all that he is on his way home and just expect her to be ready to preform the greeting ritual on his arrival. If she is not ready and does not have an acceptable reason she will be disciplined as per discipline ritual.
If the slave has been out -
The slave will arrive home and have ten minutes to see that she is presentable in the way that Master wishes.
The ritual:
The slave will remove her clothes (unless the tempreture in the bedroom is below 20 degrees) and will kneel on her slave mat head touching the floor and legs spread apart enough that if Master wishes he can touch his pussy. The slave will remain in this position until she is given the order to show her Master how much she has missed him at which point she will kiss his feet/shoes until he orders her to stop. The Master will then pull her hair back and ask her the same questions of the morning – who does she belong to and what does this mean? If he is pleased by her answer he will let her know and give her any orders for that afternoon/evening that he may not have given earlier in the day. If he is not pleased by her reponse he will discipline her however he sees fit and if he is feeling kind he will allow her to try her answers again. If her answers are not pleasing enough a second time round then the slave will be put on the highest protocol rules for as long as Master sees fit until she has proved that she belongs to him and nobody else.
Rational:
As per the morning ritual this ritual reinforces the Master's and slaves positions allowing for no confussion as to who is in control. In kneeling and kissing his feet the slave in placing herself physicaly lower to her Master which again reinforces her position while at the same time giving her an outlet to show her love and appreciation to her Master through her kisses. This ritual also provides a good oppurtunity for the Master to use his slave in any way he sees fit from the moment he gets home. By being naked her body is ready for his use and pleasure.
Exceptions to preforming ritual:
If vanilla guests are in the house and are not able to be entertained by housemate for a short period of time this ritual will be delayed until the guests leave. In this cicumstance the slave must be ready to preform this ritual within ten minutes of the guests departure.
If a time out has been granted for the day.
If the slave in unable to find ten minutes away from the child then this ritual will be preformed as soon as the child is occupied or has gone down for a nap.
Collar ritual:
This ritual is to be preformed anytime a collar in to be placed on the slave. Often this ritual will take place directly following the nightly greeting ritual.
The ritual:
The Master will order his slave to prepare to be collared. On receiving this order she will fetch the collar indicated by her Master and any lock or key that may go along with it. The slave will bring these items to her Master kneel and will present them to her Master. The Master will ask the slave what it is she wishes and in the slave will respond asking for her Master to place his collar around her neck in as pleasing manner and she can. If the Master is feeling kind he will grant her request straight away and pull her head down so that it rests in his lap while he locks the collar around her neck and she will remain in this position until she is granted permission to move. While locking the collar around her neck the Master will remind her that when she is wearing his collar she is showing the world that she belongs to him and much conduct herself in a manner that will bring honor to him and his household. If the Master is wanting to test his slave or is not feeling so kind that day he will order her to beg for her collar. Once she has begged to his satisfaction he will grant her request.
Rational:
A collar is a symbol of Master's control over his slave and of the slaves acceptance of this control. By having to ask to be collared and/or beg for her collar she shows that she is aware of this fact and that she knows it is a great honor to wear her Master's collar.
Slave Cleansing/Inspection Ritual:
This ritual is to be preformed as the Master wishes but will be preformed at least once a week. If the slave feels the desire for this ritual to take place when the Master has not indicated it is his wishes then she will beg for him to preform it with her.
The ritual:
The Master will indictate to the slave that she is to be cleansed. It will depend on his mood as to how he indicates this but may range from a simple order to prepare herself for cleansing/inspection to her Master declaring that she is not up to his standard and that he will need to fix it himself (The second form esentially begins a humilation scene where the slave must be cleased before she is worthy of any other attention from her Master where the first way of just giving an order indicates that he wishes to bath his property)
On receiving this order the slave will make her way to the bathroom door and kneel there until her Master orders her to enter. On her entry the Master will strip her clothes from her (or if humilating may even tear or cut them off) he will then place metal handcuffs upon her wrists and secure her so that she is kneeling on the floor with her bottom raised waiting to be cleansed inside as well as out. The Master will admisitraor an enema to the slave and depending on the reasons for this treatment he may allow her to go to the bathroom and empty in private or order that she does it in front of him into a bucket which she must then clean later. either sitting in a bath he has prepare for her or standing under the shower. He will then wash his slave all over (either gently or rough) and depending on his reasons for this ritual will either allow her to relax in the bath while he sits and talks to her or he will pull her straight out on to the bathmat. When she is out of the bath he will either allow her to drip dry or dry her off gentle with a towel. Once dry he will order his slave to assume the inspection position. ( Standing legs apart so he may inspect her pussy and her hands clasp behind her head, eyes downcast) The Master will inspect his property and depending on his reasons for the ritual will either massage body lotion in to her while she is in this position or find any flaws with her presentation that may be there (not shaved or not clean enough asshole for example) if he finds any flaws in her apperance he will give her orders on how and when they are to be fixed by, if this is taking the form a humilation scene she will be berated and degraded over this flaws and must fix them to her Masters satisfaction immedialy even if this means she must endure a cold shower or repeated enemas to fix the problems. When the inspection is passed the Master will give orders as to what is expected of his slave next.
Rational:
The rational behind this ritual has a few points to it. Firstly it is a nice time for the Master and slave to connect with one another after a busy day or time when either has felt there is not much connection happening. Secondly after a busy day with work or looking after children this ritual proves useful for assisting the slave to let go of the day to day worries so that she may focus on either serving her Master to the best of her ability or placing her in the right frame of mind to scene after the children are in bed. Thirdly there are portions of this ritual that the slave may find humilating, this humilation serves to allow the slave to really focus on her slave heart and on just how much she is willing to go through to please her Master in turn this assists in refocusing her mind on her Master and her duties. The slave often finds that humilation leaves her more open and vuranable to her Master and this openness allows her to find freedom in her role.
Playtime Ritual:
This ritual will be preformed when ever Master has decided it is playtime unless he wishes to take his slave by surprise.
The ritual:
The Master will give his slave the order to prepare the playspace and will give her any instructions as to what she is to lay out or how she is to be prepared. He may send her an sms with these instructions if he wishes things to be ready when he gets home (or even to get his slave's mind going ready hours in advance)
The slave will make sure that the room Master wishes to play in is at a comfortable tempreture and that any equpiment he has ordered is laid out in a pleasing manner. The slave will make sure that there is fresh drinking water and any other safety equpiment within easy reach should it be needed. She may help to prepare the scene by lighting candles and choosing music knowing that if this does not please her Master he will get rid of them and may punish her for her assuming manner. When all is ready the slave will go to her Master and kneel in front of him and when granted permission to speak she will announce that the room is prepared. She will then await any instructions from her Master.
Once playtime is finsihed it is the slaves dutie to see to the tidying off the room and to the care of any toys that her Master may have used on her.
Rational:
This ritual allows both Master and slave to get their minds in the right space to swith off from the real world and enjoy a rewarding scene.
Bedtime Ritual
To be preformed at the end of the day when the slave is ready to retire for the evening or when ordered by the Master.
Ritual:
When it is time to retire for the evening the slave will kneel at her Master's feet and once given permission to speak will ask for permission to begin preparing for bed. Once permission is granted the slave will brush her teeth and hair and attend to any bathroom matters that may be needed. When she is ready she will kneel and ask her Master is there is anything else he requires of her before she retires for the evening. If the answer is yes she will attend to his request if the answer is no she will head to the bedroom and kneel on her slave mat until her Master comes in to the room.
On entering the room her Master will remind her of what and who she is and of what that means to him. He will then ask her if she has any trangressions to his rules from that day that she must confess. If the answer is yes then punishment ritual will be preformed if the answer is no he will grant her permission to beg for the privledge of sleeping in his bed that night. If she does not beg to his pleasure she may be denied the privdlge and be forced to sleep on the floor or if she is lucky a mattress for the night. The slave will then ask/beg the Master to prepare her for sleep. Master then places her sleep collar and any other restraints on his Slave that he wishes her to endure for that night. (example: ankle cuff locked on and chain locked to end of bed/ wrists cuffed in front of her/sleepsack) At this point the Master may let his slave know how much she has pleased him that day and may snuggle in the bed with her for a while before allowing her to go to sleep.
Rational:
Like every ritual this reinforced both positions and allows for a quite coming down to the day. Sleeping in collar is a comforting reminder to the slave that she is owned and loved and the ability to confess any transgressions and be punished for them allows the slave to go to sleep with out the guilt that may otherwise rest on her shoulders to be dealt with so that she may sleep well and awake refreshed for the next day of serving.
Discipline/Punishment Ritual:
This ritual is to be preformed when ever punishment or discipline is required. If the slave has confessed to a transgression of the rules during the bedtime ritual it will be preformed immedatly before going to bed for the evening unless the transgression is severe enough that it require punishment instead of discipline.
Ritual:
The Master will stand in front of the slave while she kneels, he will ask her what it is she has done wrong and she will respond listing any transgression that she has made. Once the transgression have been listed the Master will let her know of his dissapointment in her and will send her to think on her actions in the corner while he decides her discipline.
After some time has passed the Master will call his slave back to him, she will crawl to him and kneel before him head touching the floor, arms out in front of her in a position of prostration and her lowness. He will then order her to beg for his forgivness. Once she has begged to his satisfation he will inform her what form the discipline will take and will order her to what ever position is needed for the discipline to be preformed. Most punishments will have a physical component to them as it is well regonised that for this slave most of the time physical punishment is the only way that the guilt may be releived though sometimes a physical punishment may not be enough and something else will need to go along with it such as removing privledges or writing essays before she is forgiven. When punishment or discipline has been preformed the slave will thank her Master for correcting and teaching her and will kiss his feet in graditute until he orders her to stop. The Master will state that she has been punished and is forgiven and will give her any orders as to what is to happen next.
Rational:
A time out period allows both partys to calm down if either is angry. It allows the slave to think of her actions while allowing the Master to decide what he is to do with his slave. By verbally stating that she is forgiven once a punsihment is over it clears the air and allows the Master and slave to get back to normal.
Morning Ritual
To be preformed on waking each morning.
The ritual:
The slave will rise either slightly before or with The Master every morning and will kneel on her slave mat. Once the Master is awake and out of bed he stands before his slave and pulling her hair back ask's the slave who she belongs too and what this means. When the slave has given an acceptable answer (and acceptable may vary from day to day depending on Masters whims) Master orders her to prove that she is worthy of serving him this day and to beg him for this privledge. The slave may attempt to prove that she is worthy of serving her Master in any way that she sees fit. (Asking permission to pleasure him or kiss his feet for example) When Master is satisfied that his slave has earned the privledge of serving him this day he will grant her permission to rise and serve him and if she is lucky may also let her know how much her loves and values her.
Once permission has been granted for the slave to serve her Master that day she will either begin to prepare his breakfast while he showers or attend him in the bathroom as per Master's orders.
If she has been ordered to see to Breakfast by the time Master has finished his morning shower the slave will have his breakfast laid out on the table and a thermos of fresh coffee (to take to work with him) ready. She will be kneeling in her place awaiting him. With eyes cast down the slave will ask Master how she may serve him today it is at this point that Master will give the slave any orders that he may have for that day. If slave has please Master that morning he may invite her to join him at breakfast and give her orders while they share breakfast together if not then he will give his orders while she kneels beside the tables.
Before leaving for work for the day Master will grant his slave permission to go about her day and attend to her duties. If he is particularly pleased he may indulge his slave with a kiss or a hug before he leaves for work.
Rational:
Starting the day in this manner assists the slave to be in the right mindset from the very beginning of the day. Both Master and slave are well aware of where each stands by the reinforcing that the slave belongs to him and of what this means. Proving that she is worthy to serve the slave agains reinforces th correct mindset for her day. This ritual is about starting the day on the right foot so that the slave knows her places and knows what is expected of her that day without there being any questions about it. By attending Master in the shower or preparing his breakfast while he showers the slave experiences her first act of service for the day and feels pleasure that she has been able to serve and start her Master's day off in a positve manner.
Exceptions to preforming this ritual:
Master has granted a time out for the day as per the slave rules.
The slave has been granted permission to have a sleep in.
The slave has had to rise and leave the house to see to her work/study before Master has had to start his day.
If the child is awake then this ritual will be modified. The slave will still be required to kneel however this portion of the morning ritual will be kept brief with Master only asking her who she belongs too. She will still be required to serve breakfast and will still be given her orders for the day at that point in time.
Greeting Ritual:
This ritual is to be preformed when ever the Master or slave has been out of the house for work/study or on their own and will be preformed as soon as they are in private together.
If the Master has been out:
The slave will make sure that by the time Master is due home she is clean and tidy and pleasing to look at and that fresh coffee will only take a few moments to prepare once she is released to get Master his afternoon coffee. If Master is feeling kind that day he may send her a message as he leaves work so that she knows she has about an hour to prepare, if he is feeling mean that day or really wanting to push the slave he may not let her know at all that he is on his way home and just expect her to be ready to preform the greeting ritual on his arrival. If she is not ready and does not have an acceptable reason she will be disciplined as per discipline ritual.
If the slave has been out -
The slave will arrive home and have ten minutes to see that she is presentable in the way that Master wishes.
The ritual:
The slave will remove her clothes (unless the tempreture in the bedroom is below 20 degrees) and will kneel on her slave mat head touching the floor and legs spread apart enough that if Master wishes he can touch his pussy. The slave will remain in this position until she is given the order to show her Master how much she has missed him at which point she will kiss his feet/shoes until he orders her to stop. The Master will then pull her hair back and ask her the same questions of the morning – who does she belong to and what does this mean? If he is pleased by her answer he will let her know and give her any orders for that afternoon/evening that he may not have given earlier in the day. If he is not pleased by her reponse he will discipline her however he sees fit and if he is feeling kind he will allow her to try her answers again. If her answers are not pleasing enough a second time round then the slave will be put on the highest protocol rules for as long as Master sees fit until she has proved that she belongs to him and nobody else.
Rational:
As per the morning ritual this ritual reinforces the Master's and slaves positions allowing for no confussion as to who is in control. In kneeling and kissing his feet the slave in placing herself physicaly lower to her Master which again reinforces her position while at the same time giving her an outlet to show her love and appreciation to her Master through her kisses. This ritual also provides a good oppurtunity for the Master to use his slave in any way he sees fit from the moment he gets home. By being naked her body is ready for his use and pleasure.
Exceptions to preforming ritual:
If vanilla guests are in the house and are not able to be entertained by housemate for a short period of time this ritual will be delayed until the guests leave. In this cicumstance the slave must be ready to preform this ritual within ten minutes of the guests departure.
If a time out has been granted for the day.
If the slave in unable to find ten minutes away from the child then this ritual will be preformed as soon as the child is occupied or has gone down for a nap.
Collar ritual:
This ritual is to be preformed anytime a collar in to be placed on the slave. Often this ritual will take place directly following the nightly greeting ritual.
The ritual:
The Master will order his slave to prepare to be collared. On receiving this order she will fetch the collar indicated by her Master and any lock or key that may go along with it. The slave will bring these items to her Master kneel and will present them to her Master. The Master will ask the slave what it is she wishes and in the slave will respond asking for her Master to place his collar around her neck in as pleasing manner and she can. If the Master is feeling kind he will grant her request straight away and pull her head down so that it rests in his lap while he locks the collar around her neck and she will remain in this position until she is granted permission to move. While locking the collar around her neck the Master will remind her that when she is wearing his collar she is showing the world that she belongs to him and much conduct herself in a manner that will bring honor to him and his household. If the Master is wanting to test his slave or is not feeling so kind that day he will order her to beg for her collar. Once she has begged to his satisfaction he will grant her request.
Rational:
A collar is a symbol of Master's control over his slave and of the slaves acceptance of this control. By having to ask to be collared and/or beg for her collar she shows that she is aware of this fact and that she knows it is a great honor to wear her Master's collar.
Slave Cleansing/Inspection Ritual:
This ritual is to be preformed as the Master wishes but will be preformed at least once a week. If the slave feels the desire for this ritual to take place when the Master has not indicated it is his wishes then she will beg for him to preform it with her.
The ritual:
The Master will indictate to the slave that she is to be cleansed. It will depend on his mood as to how he indicates this but may range from a simple order to prepare herself for cleansing/inspection to her Master declaring that she is not up to his standard and that he will need to fix it himself (The second form esentially begins a humilation scene where the slave must be cleased before she is worthy of any other attention from her Master where the first way of just giving an order indicates that he wishes to bath his property)
On receiving this order the slave will make her way to the bathroom door and kneel there until her Master orders her to enter. On her entry the Master will strip her clothes from her (or if humilating may even tear or cut them off) he will then place metal handcuffs upon her wrists and secure her so that she is kneeling on the floor with her bottom raised waiting to be cleansed inside as well as out. The Master will admisitraor an enema to the slave and depending on the reasons for this treatment he may allow her to go to the bathroom and empty in private or order that she does it in front of him into a bucket which she must then clean later. either sitting in a bath he has prepare for her or standing under the shower. He will then wash his slave all over (either gently or rough) and depending on his reasons for this ritual will either allow her to relax in the bath while he sits and talks to her or he will pull her straight out on to the bathmat. When she is out of the bath he will either allow her to drip dry or dry her off gentle with a towel. Once dry he will order his slave to assume the inspection position. ( Standing legs apart so he may inspect her pussy and her hands clasp behind her head, eyes downcast) The Master will inspect his property and depending on his reasons for the ritual will either massage body lotion in to her while she is in this position or find any flaws with her presentation that may be there (not shaved or not clean enough asshole for example) if he finds any flaws in her apperance he will give her orders on how and when they are to be fixed by, if this is taking the form a humilation scene she will be berated and degraded over this flaws and must fix them to her Masters satisfaction immedialy even if this means she must endure a cold shower or repeated enemas to fix the problems. When the inspection is passed the Master will give orders as to what is expected of his slave next.
Rational:
The rational behind this ritual has a few points to it. Firstly it is a nice time for the Master and slave to connect with one another after a busy day or time when either has felt there is not much connection happening. Secondly after a busy day with work or looking after children this ritual proves useful for assisting the slave to let go of the day to day worries so that she may focus on either serving her Master to the best of her ability or placing her in the right frame of mind to scene after the children are in bed. Thirdly there are portions of this ritual that the slave may find humilating, this humilation serves to allow the slave to really focus on her slave heart and on just how much she is willing to go through to please her Master in turn this assists in refocusing her mind on her Master and her duties. The slave often finds that humilation leaves her more open and vuranable to her Master and this openness allows her to find freedom in her role.
Playtime Ritual:
This ritual will be preformed when ever Master has decided it is playtime unless he wishes to take his slave by surprise.
The ritual:
The Master will give his slave the order to prepare the playspace and will give her any instructions as to what she is to lay out or how she is to be prepared. He may send her an sms with these instructions if he wishes things to be ready when he gets home (or even to get his slave's mind going ready hours in advance)
The slave will make sure that the room Master wishes to play in is at a comfortable tempreture and that any equpiment he has ordered is laid out in a pleasing manner. The slave will make sure that there is fresh drinking water and any other safety equpiment within easy reach should it be needed. She may help to prepare the scene by lighting candles and choosing music knowing that if this does not please her Master he will get rid of them and may punish her for her assuming manner. When all is ready the slave will go to her Master and kneel in front of him and when granted permission to speak she will announce that the room is prepared. She will then await any instructions from her Master.
Once playtime is finsihed it is the slaves dutie to see to the tidying off the room and to the care of any toys that her Master may have used on her.
Rational:
This ritual allows both Master and slave to get their minds in the right space to swith off from the real world and enjoy a rewarding scene.
Bedtime Ritual
To be preformed at the end of the day when the slave is ready to retire for the evening or when ordered by the Master.
Ritual:
When it is time to retire for the evening the slave will kneel at her Master's feet and once given permission to speak will ask for permission to begin preparing for bed. Once permission is granted the slave will brush her teeth and hair and attend to any bathroom matters that may be needed. When she is ready she will kneel and ask her Master is there is anything else he requires of her before she retires for the evening. If the answer is yes she will attend to his request if the answer is no she will head to the bedroom and kneel on her slave mat until her Master comes in to the room.
On entering the room her Master will remind her of what and who she is and of what that means to him. He will then ask her if she has any trangressions to his rules from that day that she must confess. If the answer is yes then punishment ritual will be preformed if the answer is no he will grant her permission to beg for the privledge of sleeping in his bed that night. If she does not beg to his pleasure she may be denied the privdlge and be forced to sleep on the floor or if she is lucky a mattress for the night. The slave will then ask/beg the Master to prepare her for sleep. Master then places her sleep collar and any other restraints on his Slave that he wishes her to endure for that night. (example: ankle cuff locked on and chain locked to end of bed/ wrists cuffed in front of her/sleepsack) At this point the Master may let his slave know how much she has pleased him that day and may snuggle in the bed with her for a while before allowing her to go to sleep.
Rational:
Like every ritual this reinforced both positions and allows for a quite coming down to the day. Sleeping in collar is a comforting reminder to the slave that she is owned and loved and the ability to confess any transgressions and be punished for them allows the slave to go to sleep with out the guilt that may otherwise rest on her shoulders to be dealt with so that she may sleep well and awake refreshed for the next day of serving.
Discipline/Punishment Ritual:
This ritual is to be preformed when ever punishment or discipline is required. If the slave has confessed to a transgression of the rules during the bedtime ritual it will be preformed immedatly before going to bed for the evening unless the transgression is severe enough that it require punishment instead of discipline.
Ritual:
The Master will stand in front of the slave while she kneels, he will ask her what it is she has done wrong and she will respond listing any transgression that she has made. Once the transgression have been listed the Master will let her know of his dissapointment in her and will send her to think on her actions in the corner while he decides her discipline.
After some time has passed the Master will call his slave back to him, she will crawl to him and kneel before him head touching the floor, arms out in front of her in a position of prostration and her lowness. He will then order her to beg for his forgivness. Once she has begged to his satisfation he will inform her what form the discipline will take and will order her to what ever position is needed for the discipline to be preformed. Most punishments will have a physical component to them as it is well regonised that for this slave most of the time physical punishment is the only way that the guilt may be releived though sometimes a physical punishment may not be enough and something else will need to go along with it such as removing privledges or writing essays before she is forgiven. When punishment or discipline has been preformed the slave will thank her Master for correcting and teaching her and will kiss his feet in graditute until he orders her to stop. The Master will state that she has been punished and is forgiven and will give her any orders as to what is to happen next.
Rational:
A time out period allows both partys to calm down if either is angry. It allows the slave to think of her actions while allowing the Master to decide what he is to do with his slave. By verbally stating that she is forgiven once a punsihment is over it clears the air and allows the Master and slave to get back to normal.
Getting back on track M/s
Yesterday Master and I really started working hard at getting back on track.
In the afternoon we had some 'play' time which while nic
e on one hand because i do like sensory play at the particular point in time it wasn't quite what i needed. I did my best to get my mind into it though as it was clear that's what Master wanted to do with me and as his slave who am I to stop him from having the fun that he wanted too? Despite wanting/needing something different I still managed to get myself if a mindset where I was able to enjoy what he was doing to me afterall it felt so nice for him to be touching me again, to feel as though I actaully mattered to him.
So if sensory play isn't what i thought i needed then i guess the question is what was I wanting/needing? Honestly what I was wanting was not a nice sensory session but a hard session that would push me physicaly and emotionaly. A session where I feel like I am nothing but an object for him to do what he wishes with, a session with pain, with humilation with putting me into that i'm just a slave frame of mind. A session where he was anything but nice, where he was strict and stern and if I did anything slightly wrong was put back into my place quickly.
So while that play sesssion didn't happen what did happen was that after play Master put our high protocol rules in to place only modified slightly when our housemate got home. To be really honest with those rules in place again today I feel more content and at ease then I have in months. Things just feel right somehow like this is how it should be all the time not just every so often when Master decides on a high protocol day. Rules about sitting on furniture, eating/drinking/Bathroom, Speaking, addressing him and serving him just feel so normal like they should be there all the time though with a few slightly modified to fit day to day life. I like not being allowed to look him in the eye without his permission it helps keep me in that frame of mind that I have been having such a hard time finding again. I like having to gain his permission to speak or if i want to speak for a period of time ask for permission to speak freely. About the only one that seems hard today is not being able to touch him without permission.
I miss the days back in the start of our relationship where most of these rules were the normal day to day rules. Where I had to send him a message during the day if i wanted to eat or go to the bathroom and has to ask when he was at home, where every night i greeted him on my knees and knelt again asking permission to go to bed later in the evening. Where I didn't touch him without his permission and when he granted that permission or he touched me my hearted went flying with joy and I was grateful for my Master touching me. Where everyday he left me with at least a few orders of things i had to do and if they were not done i got punished. I remember one day where he had ordered me to complete a particular number of words on an assignment and when I hadn't done it at 3pm he sent me an order that the word count was still to be meet but that to remind me that i was his and did not belong to myself i was to insert a butt plug for 1 hour while working on it and if i hadn't completed enough words in that one hour the plug would stay in longer. I bitched and moaned and said how can i concentrate with that in but in hindsight it reminded me that even when i was working on things that i think of as my things I am doing it for him and he because he allows me too as a side note i got 98% on that assignment. I think as time has gone on and we got more and more comfortable with each other and real life pushed in the way we started taking things for granted. I would love to get back to the point where day in day out I know my place, where being held by him is a reward that i look forward too and not just something that i expect. When all of these things are happening I feel closer to Master then at any other time and feel as though I am really his slave and not just his girlfriend.
In the afternoon we had some 'play' time which while nic
e on one hand because i do like sensory play at the particular point in time it wasn't quite what i needed. I did my best to get my mind into it though as it was clear that's what Master wanted to do with me and as his slave who am I to stop him from having the fun that he wanted too? Despite wanting/needing something different I still managed to get myself if a mindset where I was able to enjoy what he was doing to me afterall it felt so nice for him to be touching me again, to feel as though I actaully mattered to him.
So if sensory play isn't what i thought i needed then i guess the question is what was I wanting/needing? Honestly what I was wanting was not a nice sensory session but a hard session that would push me physicaly and emotionaly. A session where I feel like I am nothing but an object for him to do what he wishes with, a session with pain, with humilation with putting me into that i'm just a slave frame of mind. A session where he was anything but nice, where he was strict and stern and if I did anything slightly wrong was put back into my place quickly.
So while that play sesssion didn't happen what did happen was that after play Master put our high protocol rules in to place only modified slightly when our housemate got home. To be really honest with those rules in place again today I feel more content and at ease then I have in months. Things just feel right somehow like this is how it should be all the time not just every so often when Master decides on a high protocol day. Rules about sitting on furniture, eating/drinking/Bathroom, Speaking, addressing him and serving him just feel so normal like they should be there all the time though with a few slightly modified to fit day to day life. I like not being allowed to look him in the eye without his permission it helps keep me in that frame of mind that I have been having such a hard time finding again. I like having to gain his permission to speak or if i want to speak for a period of time ask for permission to speak freely. About the only one that seems hard today is not being able to touch him without permission.
I miss the days back in the start of our relationship where most of these rules were the normal day to day rules. Where I had to send him a message during the day if i wanted to eat or go to the bathroom and has to ask when he was at home, where every night i greeted him on my knees and knelt again asking permission to go to bed later in the evening. Where I didn't touch him without his permission and when he granted that permission or he touched me my hearted went flying with joy and I was grateful for my Master touching me. Where everyday he left me with at least a few orders of things i had to do and if they were not done i got punished. I remember one day where he had ordered me to complete a particular number of words on an assignment and when I hadn't done it at 3pm he sent me an order that the word count was still to be meet but that to remind me that i was his and did not belong to myself i was to insert a butt plug for 1 hour while working on it and if i hadn't completed enough words in that one hour the plug would stay in longer. I bitched and moaned and said how can i concentrate with that in but in hindsight it reminded me that even when i was working on things that i think of as my things I am doing it for him and he because he allows me too as a side note i got 98% on that assignment. I think as time has gone on and we got more and more comfortable with each other and real life pushed in the way we started taking things for granted. I would love to get back to the point where day in day out I know my place, where being held by him is a reward that i look forward too and not just something that i expect. When all of these things are happening I feel closer to Master then at any other time and feel as though I am really his slave and not just his girlfriend.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Book of Days 16th July
Outside my window- The sky is blue with only a few white fluffy clouds breaking up the beautiful blue. There is a butterfly hovering around the tree outside my study window, not as pretty as the ones i saw up north but pretty none the less.
my thoughts - sometimes you have to take things slowely, as much as you want to jump in the deep end and swim or sink sometimes it is much better for the soul to wade in slowely and adjust to the tempreture of the water as you go.
Today's Quote- "The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams" - Eleanor Roosevelt
i am thankful for- A wonderful Master who loves and supports me no matter what, I am thankful to be back at home after a stressful trip to see my mother in Townsville. I am thankfully that i got into all the subjects I wanted for semester two and i'm most thankful that Master and I are at last picking up the lifestyle again.
From my service training - Master is not really focusing on training at the moment, right now the focus is on getting back into the 24/7 lifestlye without becomming overwhelmed so he is slowely adding rules back into place one after the other. Perhaps when we are back to normal with all the rules in place Master will work out a training program for me, i really hope so.
From the kitchen- i haven't really cooked anything special in weeks now, this week it has just been quick and easy food such as hotdogs or baked potatoes. I am hoping to find the time on the weekend to bake a cake or something special for Master just to let him know how much i love him.
i am wearing- Its a little cool today so I am wearing black pants, a singlet top and white hoodie. On my feet are pink socks.
i am creating- Nothing scene related, just working on a cross stitch height chart for the baby. I am hoping in the near future to make a slave pillow for the loungeroom as well as to work a little more on the household manual that i began months ago.
my adventures this week- This week has been mostly quiet getting back in to the swing of things after being away. On Tuesday I had an ultrasound and saw bubbles again. It is amazing to think that I am growing a whole new life inside of me and fantastic to see that its healthy and oh so very active.
Becoming well read- Reading the host by Stepahnie Myer. I want to find something D/s related to read and review in the near future but not sure if my bank balance would agree, I also don't know where to buy such books in Brisbane and the exchange rate is not good enough to order from Amazon at the moment,
i manifest and co-create- This week i focus on myself, on my thoughts and feelings and examine why i react to particular orders in particular ways.
Todays Melody- A little love - Blutengel
One of my favorite things- The feel of Master's hand as he rubs stretch mark balm into my belly every night before tucking me in to bed and giving me a big hug and kiss.
further plans for this week- Tomorrow Master and I have an appointment with the baby doctor at the hospital, after that i am heading into the city to put Master's christmas present on layby. This weekend we have not made any plans but I hope that we can use the weekend to dive deeper in to the deep end and really get back into our 24/7 lifestyle.
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If you have enjoyed going through my day with me and would like to see what the Service Book of Days is all about, go to Service Savoire Faire by Master Obsidian's slave namaste.
my thoughts - sometimes you have to take things slowely, as much as you want to jump in the deep end and swim or sink sometimes it is much better for the soul to wade in slowely and adjust to the tempreture of the water as you go.
Today's Quote- "The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams" - Eleanor Roosevelt
i am thankful for- A wonderful Master who loves and supports me no matter what, I am thankful to be back at home after a stressful trip to see my mother in Townsville. I am thankfully that i got into all the subjects I wanted for semester two and i'm most thankful that Master and I are at last picking up the lifestyle again.
From my service training - Master is not really focusing on training at the moment, right now the focus is on getting back into the 24/7 lifestlye without becomming overwhelmed so he is slowely adding rules back into place one after the other. Perhaps when we are back to normal with all the rules in place Master will work out a training program for me, i really hope so.
From the kitchen- i haven't really cooked anything special in weeks now, this week it has just been quick and easy food such as hotdogs or baked potatoes. I am hoping to find the time on the weekend to bake a cake or something special for Master just to let him know how much i love him.
i am wearing- Its a little cool today so I am wearing black pants, a singlet top and white hoodie. On my feet are pink socks.
i am creating- Nothing scene related, just working on a cross stitch height chart for the baby. I am hoping in the near future to make a slave pillow for the loungeroom as well as to work a little more on the household manual that i began months ago.
my adventures this week- This week has been mostly quiet getting back in to the swing of things after being away. On Tuesday I had an ultrasound and saw bubbles again. It is amazing to think that I am growing a whole new life inside of me and fantastic to see that its healthy and oh so very active.
Becoming well read- Reading the host by Stepahnie Myer. I want to find something D/s related to read and review in the near future but not sure if my bank balance would agree, I also don't know where to buy such books in Brisbane and the exchange rate is not good enough to order from Amazon at the moment,
i manifest and co-create- This week i focus on myself, on my thoughts and feelings and examine why i react to particular orders in particular ways.
Todays Melody- A little love - Blutengel
One of my favorite things- The feel of Master's hand as he rubs stretch mark balm into my belly every night before tucking me in to bed and giving me a big hug and kiss.
further plans for this week- Tomorrow Master and I have an appointment with the baby doctor at the hospital, after that i am heading into the city to put Master's christmas present on layby. This weekend we have not made any plans but I hope that we can use the weekend to dive deeper in to the deep end and really get back into our 24/7 lifestyle.
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If you have enjoyed going through my day with me and would like to see what the Service Book of Days is all about, go to Service Savoire Faire by Master Obsidian's slave namaste.
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