After days of my thoughts pounding away at a million miles, after so many tears I could fill a dam and unrelenting confussion I am at last calm and at peace with myself and the choices that I have at last made.

I have decided that if this is to work then I must put any thought that it will not out of my mind. If I keep thinking it will not work then the energy I will have put into that thought will make it happen. In this world we manifest the things we put the most energy into so if I want this to work I must focus only on that and use my energy to create that which I desire.

I am not quite ready to accept his collar once more but I have put my engagement ring back on and to be honest wearing it feels right.